Sleepless in Spain

I woke up last night from all of the noise on a very busy Santiago. Since I was leaving the next day on my walk to the sea, all I could do was to lie in bed and think. My thoughts moved like the tide, moving constantly to a rhythmic pattern of both sound and breath. I do so love to go to the beach and see, feel, and hear the waves don´t you? My thoughts wondered onto the thoughts of the energy of both the actions and thoughts of - yes and no- Thinking of yes I thought of the wave breaking just a few feet from shore and I am sitting ever so slighting in the water, feeling the wave as is caresses me, welcomes even beckons me to join. Seeming effortless and yet so powerful. I wondered if this was what the phrase - turning the other cheek means? Then the thought of no felt like standing in the sea where the wave was breaking - pushing and pulling me. out to sea? closer to shore? just the constant push and pull - never resting. More energy was exerted by both the wave and myself. The wave needed to break and I needed to stand. So often I find myself caught between yes and no. Trying to decide which way to go... standing in the breaking waves. trying to focus only on the answer not realizing that if I moved just a few feet either way peace would be mine. I realized that as long as the waves crashed on me there was no way I could come to any answer either way as my focus was only on the push and pull. Never on the solutions. So by moving either way I am still in indecision but at peace. For when peaceful I can find the right answer without forcing it either way. I have come to believe that if I am in the middle then that´s where I should be- in the middle - neither yes or no. Buy standing in safer water I can enjoy the joy, peace and serenity that the water bring to me.