Confession: Hello my name is..

My name is Bonnie and I am a control freak. As hard as it is (thus the control freakness) I need to admit it. This thought came to me somewhere between Madrid and Granada. After missing the morning train (again with the time) I realized I had 6 hours to wait until the next one left for Granada. Well I was ready to go... Madrid was beautiful and very BIG so I didn´t wonder too far away from the station. Then while on the train it dawned on me: I am on vacation in Spain. Now many of you are already aware of this, but it was kinda shocking to me. (not the sharpest tack in the box) I had been to focus on the other stuff (home, life, getting ready to walk) that I forgot to pay attention where I was and to enjoy the moment. This moment. I realized that I was missing many this moments in my life. Focused on the before moments or the after moments completely forgetting about these moments. (now moments) While trying to control them all. Not doing so well with that... So I guess I had better learn to let go and not control any of the moments and just live in the now moments. Not that easy I must admit but the right answer none the less. I came to understand how my fear was robbing me of my now. Hello Bonnie you are on a once in a lifetime vacation. 40 days in Spain. This is your now calling, are you ready?