Saturday, June 29, 2013

Public Service Announcement: New Orleans

I live in one of the greatest cities in the world.  I know, many people say that, but my city, New Orleans is known by its first name.  (It’s kinda like the Cher or Madonna of cities).  We never have to say “New Orleans, Louisiana, USA.  Most people don’t even know or care what state we are in and as we say here, we are a place all unto it’s self. ( OK a banana republic, but you have to admit the food is great!)

New Orleans is a complex and simple city at the same time.  We are complex because of our history that lives on every street corner and in every citizen.  To be called a Native New Orleanian, one must be born here.  Many people say I have lived her only 45 years. New Orleans is simple because it doesn't pretend to be something that it’s not.  It’s in your face from the moment you arrive. 

New Orleans and its citizens are steeped in a multicultural, multi-generational experience that pulls from our past and into our lives today. We are who we are, because being who we are not seems a waste of time.  We speak our minds because we have an opinion on everything and feel we need to share it. (Whether you want to hear it or not!)  I have often said, I love sitting around a family dinner table, oh the stories, the food, and oh can I say LOUD! 

New Orleans attacks your senses upon arrival, no subtleties here.  The smells, the sounds, the sights and the soulfulness of this city can either intoxicate you or scare the living hell out of you. The city is draped with the bends and curves of the Mississippi River that shares with us all of the Midwest’s discards.  From the toxic soup run off from farms, petrochemical plants and debris that rush past us, we take what other share with us willingly.  (Yes I drink the water, it hasn't killed me yet!) 

Much has been written and said about the underbelly that exists here in New Orleans, which Katrina put on display for the world to see.  Yes we are a urban city with abject poverty, but it from that poverty that our greatness arises.  Our soulfulness, many would not consider this city soulful; in fact many have said we are damned, exists for all to see.  Our cemeteries are cities, our churches are cathedrals and our beliefs are steeped in mysticism.  And this city constantly challenges all of your beliefs.  Think you like warm weather, spend a summer here.  Think you are a football fan, welcome to heartache.  The energy of the city pushes you past your comfort zone, ever challenging you to change.  She forces you to question your beliefs, to open your heart to the darker side of life – engaging that as willingly as you would sunshine.  For we are a city of the dark, not the oh look it’s the moon dark, but an in your face “hey it's fucking dark, now move!”  

We are a city where ghosts, sinners and saints live.  We are a city that loves life and the people in it.  We celebrate our today's because we know that tomorrow may never come.  We are the city that holds for you the stabilizing thought, that you can leave New Orleans for 15 years and come back and everything is exactly as you left it. “Laissez les bons temps rouler” ya’ll!  

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

The Little Girl Who Lives in my Head

I must admit that there are several “people” (thoughts) that live in my head.  (I realize that this might sound a bit off, but bear with me.)  The one that has seemed never to move far away from my everyday thoughts is this little girl.  When I close my eyes, I can picture her.  She is about 5 years old, standing on the front lawn of the home I grew up in, wearing a sundress with white Striderite shoes.  (OK so my mom’s idea of how I should dress really comes through on this thought!) 

She stands there so small, so innocent, and so full of wonder, that I can’t help but to want to love and protect her.  You know, she just looks so cute and innocent.  Immediately I flash to the 6’6” “, 300 lb. “Black Celt” whose has taken on the role of this protection.  NOTHING will get past him. He WILL protect her! 

For years, these two “people” (thoughts) lived in what I thought was complete agreement.  The young girl would venture out into the world and the “Black Celt” would make sure she was always safe. 

Recently, I began to examine this relationship.  Whenever I would inquire to see how they were doing, the Celt would always answer, we are fine; she is safe.  It dawned on me that she never said a word, she never answered the question.   She just smiled and looked cute.  I finally realized that this was the pattern over many years.  (OK, so I am not too quick.)  So I turned to her to ask:  How’s it going?  How is this symbiotic relationship working for you?

And man, was I in for a surprise.  She looked at me with all the wisdom in the world and said, you know, I just keep him around only so he could feel needed.  I don’t need him, for I am fine.  I am always safe; because my heart is open.  I am every curious; for I know there is nothing that could ever hurt me.  I am always willing to love, as love is my essence. 

Mind-blowing revelations from the mouth of a child!

I realized that for all of my life, I have felt the need to protect myself, from the world, from someone, or even something.  In trying to keep myself “safe” I have discounted my own strength and resilience.  I have forgotten who I really am; for I am that little girl, on the lawn, with the strength, wisdom, and courage of a child. 


Today, I honor that child in me, for she has always known the way!